Poems, quotes, whimsical things I come up with....could be anything! I'm kind of all over the place...
I love to write (obvs!), do lots of origami when I'm stressed, decorate random dreary rooms, bask in the sunlight (it cures my life!), collect worry stones (see the large, black glittery rock below), and paint/decorate/create various affirmation "decor" to hang around our house. Just trying to spread those happies! ;)
6/16/2017
I've been doing a lot of sketching and coloring lately, as my brain seems to be too tired to read or form complete sentences. I am most certainly NOT very skilled with this type of art, but it is more about the process than the end product.
Highs
When to put the fire out
And when to watch it burn?
Flames rising
A rainbow of colors
Brilliant light cast
Fights off the shadows
Beauty inspiring awe
In those who stand near
And warm themselves
In the reds and blues and golds
A magnificent sight
That cannot be controlled
Wild fire.
- Pita
And when to watch it burn?
Flames rising
A rainbow of colors
Brilliant light cast
Fights off the shadows
Beauty inspiring awe
In those who stand near
And warm themselves
In the reds and blues and golds
A magnificent sight
That cannot be controlled
Wild fire.
- Pita
Creatures of the Night
Open eyes in the darkness
Only light from the moon
To illuminate those
Creatures of the night
Pacing, prowling, watching, waiting
On guard
Movements slow and effortless
Through the sea of black
A thousand rubber bands
Threatening to snap
At the slightest hint of danger
Appearing tranquil, docile, insanely calm
And harmless with no light
But think again before you strike at
Creatures of the night.
- Pita
Only light from the moon
To illuminate those
Creatures of the night
Pacing, prowling, watching, waiting
On guard
Movements slow and effortless
Through the sea of black
A thousand rubber bands
Threatening to snap
At the slightest hint of danger
Appearing tranquil, docile, insanely calm
And harmless with no light
But think again before you strike at
Creatures of the night.
- Pita
Shadowland
Feels lonely here
In Shadowland
No one left
To hold my hand
The monsters breathe
They sound so near
I shout for help
And no one hears
There is no hope
No helping hand
When you get lost
In Shadowland.
- K.R.
In Shadowland
No one left
To hold my hand
The monsters breathe
They sound so near
I shout for help
And no one hears
There is no hope
No helping hand
When you get lost
In Shadowland.
- K.R.
Ostriches

I scream in pain, and no one hears.
My cries fall upon deaf ears.
Forever they will be
Ostriches
Their heads in the sand
to me.
- K.R.
Hope
"You are your own Prince Charming, dear girl." - C.P.
"It's not brave if you're not scared." - unknown
"Love can walk through fire without blinking." - A.J.
"Always do what you are afraid to do." R.W. Emerson
"The person who says something is impossible should not interrupt the person who is doing it." - Chinese proverbs
"If we did the things we are capable of, we would astound ourselves." - T.A. Edison
"It is curious - curious that physical courage should be so common in the world, and moral courage so rare." - Mark Twain
The Language of Mental Illness
"Someone might suspect something is wrong if I just sit here and stare at the wall all night. I have to act like a normal human being. I have to go through the motions and pretend that everything is okay even though everything is so far from okay I can’t find my way back."
"I suck the life from him. I suck."
"I’m afraid I’m going to lose everything. Yet I can’t get myself to do anything to stop it. I think about what I could do, and then I think about the effort it would take, and I just feel exhausted. I am exhausted with living."
"My bipolar started acting up again. It set me off to the highest of highs I've ever had. Mania can be....exhilarating. And addictive. Very addictive. I flew for a week. Like skydiving with no parachute...just falling faster and faster and feeling the rush. And....SPLAT! I crashed. No parachute, remember?"
"It's like there has been a party going on in my head for weeks...and everyone finally left. All of the sudden I'm able to relax!" - on coming down from mania.
Not Fragile
The waters lull
The moon awakens
No storm in sight
But something is stirring
Beneath the surface
Helpless
She begins to sink
Struggling to breathe
Fighting to survive
Kick, kick, kick
Keep those feet moving
Don’t let go
The will to live
Strong and stubborn
Feet find firm ground
Righting herself
To live another day
The moon awakens
No storm in sight
But something is stirring
Beneath the surface
Helpless
She begins to sink
Struggling to breathe
Fighting to survive
Kick, kick, kick
Keep those feet moving
Don’t let go
The will to live
Strong and stubborn
Feet find firm ground
Righting herself
To live another day
Random Quotes
"Life can be very rough sometimes. You just have to keep going, to wade through it. You can't go around." - P.N.
"Home is the place where, if you have to go, they have to take you in." - Robert Frost
"There's nothing sweeter than smartness you gathered up yourself." - Sheila Soloman Klass
"Life is not a journey to the grave with the intention of arriving safely in one pretty and well preserved piece, bu to skid in broadside thoroughly used up, worn out and defiantly shouting "Geronimo!" - unknown
"When it feels as though you've lost it all
and no further can you fall
lift your chin and look to the sky
up to heaven your heart will fly." - unknown
Untitled
My heart's been broken so many times
And I don't have the will left anymore
To throw myself off the edge again
Without someone calling me a whore.
This world is so full of misunderstanding
Nobody seems to care about others
Why is it so hard to put on different shoes
When we're all supposed to be brothers?
Some days I want to give up and go away
Just being around them makes me ill
But when I see a hopeful child's eyes
It gives me back my will.
I will stay on and serve our people
Trying to keep their hearts pure
They will learn to help each other
And stay away from narcissistic lure. - anonymous
Hiding
Hiding.
In my tower
In a field
With no one around
For miles.
Orange couch.
Incense.
Just trying
To make sense
Of these thoughts.
Few days off
In my head
Keeps me
From ending up dead. - anonymous
Seraphim
I am the Seraphim.
I am the savior.
The guardian angel.
I will help you.
I will save you.
I will save the world.
Just don't give up on me.
Have faith that I can do this.
Have faith that you can stand with my help.
I will help you stand.
Until you learn to walk on your own
Once more.
I am the Seraphim.
I won't let you fall. - anonymous