Don't you hate it when your automatic physical reaction makes you look like a chicken?
I love adrenaline rushes. I do my best when I am running on one - seriously, I thrive on them. The only problem is, they make me look like I am in a full-on panic mode. I start shaking and I can't steady my voice or make it any louder no matter how much I want to or how hard I try. It always happens at the beginning of any excitement but usually goes away within 5 minutes or so.
I hate it.
I am really a lot braver than I appear. I am this tiny, skeletal woman right now and I look like I'm about 12 years old. However, if I saw one of my friends in a fight, I would immediately jump in to help defend them. I might be shaking like a person with Parkinson's, but don't misjudge me. My brain is going about 100 times faster than it normally does, which usually ends up being the downfall for my opponent. Also, can we please not forget the fact that I was in the military? I know it was a decade ago, and i know I didn't go overseas...but I still got the intensive training and I still have the heart of a Marine. (Why does this thought always set off a slew of "OOH RAH!"'s followed by a bunch of expletives pumping my ego up??)
A Marine's heart is their most deadly weapon.
Mother and wife by day, psych RN by night. So many different ways to view life. I try to take everything in and be very slow to judge.