Antsy.

I'm not going to lie, I'm kind of freaking out.

My husband and I have been slowly but surely trying to get rid of any unhealthy vices we have held onto since our teenage years. One of the last few things we need to work on is quitting smoking. So, this weekend I'm going to order us an e-cigarette to share to start the process. I don't think it's really sunk in yet - every time I think about not smoking anymore, my brain goes into panic mode. It's all, "What the hell am I going to do to fill that 10 minutes every hour and a half?!" Honestly though, I'm just sick of doing it. I'm sick of smelling like smoke, sick of having a normal cough turn into bronchitis, sick of running out of breath so quickly. In order to cope with the stress of quitting and the anxiety that is going to be right along side it I have decided to join a gym!

I know, I know. I am one of the laziest people on earth. The thought of me getting out of the house and dragging my sorry ass to the gym on a regular basis is almost comical. BUT...I know I can do it. I know that my body has a decent metabolism, and that it can build muscle relatively quickly as long as I stay on a strict regimen. Dude, I've been through Marine Corps bootcamp and combat training. My body actually loves physical activity...my brain apparently just has the mentality of a pothead. It's going to be an epic battle between the two. I just hope I don't keel over in the first 10 minutes on the tredmill due to the fact that I haven't had to run anywhere in 10 years...(unless you count sprinting to the bus stop because the kiddo decided to move with the speed of a snail that morning.)

 So all in all, I'm actually pretty excited. Although terrifying, the thought of starting new feels pretty refreshing. An exercise routine should also do wonders with my depression and anxiety. (Win!) Maybe I'll even try a pilates or yoga class while I'm at it...Definitely looking forward to looking and feeling healthier this year, and hopefully every year after this. (Assuming the world keeps turning after 2012.)

Yay healthy stress relievers!


  - Pita