I swear, every time I blink an entire day disappears...
Little Man had his 4 month appointment this past week. He is a whopping 13 lbs even and is over 2 feet tall! He has so much personality now...laughing and giggling and drooling and trying to eat everything and anything that gets near his mouth. (Except for food. He seems to hate baby food.)
I am still at 3 shifts a week for work, and it is the perfect balance for being a mom and still doing the job that I love. My bank statement didn't seem to get that memo, though, and I may have to pick up some extra shifts to cover the difference. That's all right. I spend so much time with my kiddos when I am at home that going to work has become my "me" time.
I've always loved being a psych nurse, but I never fully appreciated the workout it gives my brain when we have hectic nights. There is so much multi-tasking involved that you don't realize until you take a few months away. I love the challenges the job brings, I love the people I work with, and I love doing something that I seem to be pretty good at and am fully invested in! Well...I'd like to think I do decent work here...
I've been having a lot of trouble with sleep lately. Due to multiple anxiety provoking issues, my brain has been running 24/7 for the past few weeks. When I try to lay down to get some rest, it starts doing double time. Ugh. Benadryl has helped some, and I've had to use other meds when the nights are extra difficult. The best sleep I seem to get is in the afternoons when my husband mans the helm for a few hours. I guess the monsters are all hiding while the sun is still out? Luckily I know myself well enough to know all of my de-escalation preferences. Decaf tea and warm blankets for me! (I swear I'm a keyholder and not on the other side of the door...) Coffee seems to have become a big no-no for me again. It makes me 10 times as tense when I'm all caffeinated, so I've tried to stop drinking it on my days off. Also...WALKING IS AWESOME! I totally forgot how great it can be to just load a baby into the stroller and meander around the neighborhood for an hour or so.
Sunshine is good for the soul.
Mother and wife by day, psych RN by night. So many different ways to view life. I try to take everything in and be very slow to judge.