We got to escape from reality for a bit this past weekend.
It's always nice to get away. My husband and I tend to be hermits, and it takes a lot of coaxing to get us out and about. We desperately needed some time away though, so we decided to go up to my mothers' alpaca farm. Nanny and Nana were SO excited to see the munchkin (and us) and we were equally as happy to see them.
When we go up to the farm, it's like the rest of the world is put on hold. There is access to internet, most of the time a phone, and no cable tv. It is wonderful. We are completely cut off from civilization as long as we don't go on facebook. Occasionally you'll receive the random text that took 4 hours to get through, but I just turn my phone off when I get there anyway. It's nice to be incommunicado.
And the views....SO.PRETTY. It's on a mountain in northern New Hampshire, and the drive up (or at least the second half) is absolutely gorgeous. You get to ride through Franconia Notch, which is always a treat - especially on the clearer days. We had perfect weather and I wish we could've spent more time up there. We'll be back up soon. If you all want to check out where I'm talking about, go to www.foggybottomranch.com. It's my moms' farm and they run it like they were born to do this kind of job! The alpacas are super cute, but NO YOU CANNOT RIDE THEM! (This is always the first question asked when I tell people about the farm...lol!)
Anyway, a straight 24 hours of relaxation was much appreciated and I loved the QT our whole family got to spend together. Now it's back to the grind!
When's the next vacation??
It may be by a thread, but I'm hanging on.
I seriously think that surgery whooped my ass. It's taken me a lot longer to recover than I thought it would. The scar tissue still hurts and I've still got the residual nausea. I've also been exhausted lately due to this and other stressors. I am a mess.
I'm hanging in there. I'm doing it. I'm waking up every night, going to work, getting the munchkin to camp and back in the mornings, and finding time for sleep when possible. I've actually been sleeping a decent amount, so I'm not sure why I feel so exhausted. That's a lie. I have some ideas, but I'm not at the point where I would like to share them yet.
I feel a bit numb, a bit empty, and just a bit less me. It's been more difficult to get myself to sit down and read, or do the housework. Which is why I've been pushing myself harder to get these things done anyway. I want to prove I can. I'm just keeping my fingers crossed that I don't push myself too hard and break.
That would pretty much suck.
Keep hanging in.
My poor husband.
After almost 5 years of being together, he just discovered one of my quirks.
I like to rearrange rooms in my house randomly every couple of months for no good reason.
Literally, there is no point in doing it...it just makes me feel better when it's done! I think of it as a way to really be able to get behind stuff and do a full cleaning. He, however, did not appreciate the fact that I wanted to move our giant dresser and bed around our tiny room just because I felt like it. Thank god he's a good sport and helped with all of the heavy lifting! Did I mention it was also quite hot outside that day and we don't have air conditioning??
I don't know what's wrong with me and all of the cleaning and rearranging lately. It's just nice to have the energy to do things! The nausea has subsided enough that I'm not curled up in a ball on the couch moaning and groaning constantly. I've been able to go out and run errands, which included buying all new towels and bathmats for our bathroom today to spruce it up a little. It was a pretty good day!
I think it's also been difficult for me to move into my husband's childhood home. It still feels like it's more his than ours just because there are so many remnants from when he was a kiddo there. By rearranging things and adding a few of my own touches it's helping me to feel more at home there than I originally did when we moved in. And I'm loving these new projects. They give me something to focus on and to work towards which has been awesome.
All in all, things are looking up!
Mother and wife by day, psych RN by night. So many different ways to view life. I try to take everything in and be very slow to judge.