I guess it was bound to happen sooner or later...no more work for the time being!
First off, 32 WEEKS - YAY!!!
The doctor has had some concerns for the past 2 months or so, and she finally decided to yank me out of work this past week. My poor husband said, "do you think she'll be able to go back next week?" and she responded with, "Errr....I doubt it, but we'll see?" Poor guy....as if he doesn't have enough stress going on, he also has to worry about me possibly having zero income 8 weeks sooner than expected. :(
Luckily, I am an ostrich of sorts. I am choosing to stick my head in the sand anytime he brings up stuff like us going completely broke, possibly losing my job if I'm out for too long, etc etc....(my brain tends to turn on this "wah wah wah" noise when these come up as it doesn't believe in negativity! Unless that negativity is coming from me, of course.)
I've been trying to make the best use of this time at home to get things done before Waffle comes. I'm starting to get a hospital bag packed for him, I've got the majority of his clothes cleaned and put away, and his room is ready for his arrival! It is great that I am not on strict bedrest, as that would probably drive me bat shit crazy. I'm just on "rest as much as you can and keep your feet up" per my doctor. As long as I keep track of my vital signs and nothing starts to elevate again, I am allowed to maintain this routine. It can be a little frustrating being at home not making money and feeling fine half of the time, but then my body will crash and be like "ENOUGH!" and I'll realize that what my doctor is saying is correct. It wouldn't do me any good to have to curl up into a ball and lay still for a few hours in the middle of my shift. (It also probably wouldn't be fair to the patient when I commandeered their bed for me and the tiny human...)
I have found that I suddenly am filled with creative energy and no outlet for it. I miss playing with modeling clay like I used to before I was a real "grown up". I have the urge to sit at the table and make hundreds of miniature Christmas ornaments featuring my family and Bebita (our fat cat). I also want to go to the fabric store and buy a million types of fleece and making baby blankets galore. Unfortunately, the materials for these projects cost money, which is coming in at a much slower rate at the moment....so I'm trying to dream of things I can do with limited funds and use every day items we have around the house.
If you have any ideas, please share!!
I found myself becoming jealous of my 8 year-old when she was talking about art-on-a-cart a few days ago.
Hopefully I don't go completely bananas while waiting for Waffle to arrive sometime in the next 2 months!
We are at....29 weeks and 2 days now!
I can't believe how far we've come since the day I found out I was preggo! We're inching towards the finish line at this point...a few more months and we'll be able to meet the booger! In the meantime, we're dealing with gestational diabetes, which has been oh-so-fun trying to get under control...I don't seem to have much problem with super high blood sugar levels, but my levels do CRASH hard and fast and I can't seem to find the right thing/right amount to eat to stop this from happening. :( The other interesting tidbit is that my blood pressure (which was chronically high before the pregnancy and I took beta blockers for it until I found out I was pregnant.) is creeping up slowly, but surely. It was averaging at 110/65 for the first 5 1/2 months straight, but lately it's been in the 130-145/89-94. Really, REALLY hoping this is not a precursor to pre-eclampsia. Needless to say, whatever birth plan I thought I had a few weeks ago has been thrown out the window. Now I'm seeing it's going to be more whenever and however the baby deems fit at that point in time. It's so strange how different my children are from each other already...
And now, for another fun quiz. ;)
When are you due: How many weeks?: December 20-22 (depending on how the doctor feels that day) I am a little over 29 weeks.
Was this planned or unplanned: Planned. Yet we were completely surprised when it happened!
How much weight gained: Shut up. Just.....shut....UP.
Is this your first pregnancy?: Nope, but it's my first pregnancy where it feels like I'm actually pregnant!
Latest food craving: Pecan pie. I blame the diabetes. Stupid diabetes.
Your top two name choices or baby's name: Secret....we're just referring to him as "Waffle" for now. :)
Worst Thing about being pregnant: Feeling like my stomach is slowly tearing itself in half. And not being able to stand up easily. I have to rock and then roll just the right way in order to get up from the couch...
Best Thing about being pregnant: Every single time Waffle kicks me. He's been my little buddy keeping me company these last few months!
The first person you told was: My husband. Wait....might have been my friend Kate. I told both of them really close together. Let's just go with the husband.
Are you more scared or excited: Really, REALLY excited to meet the munchkin, but terrified of the delivery this time.
Happy or mostly moody: Moodier than a bipolar teenager.
Last time you cried over something ridiculous was: 3 days ago when I realized I couldn't eat the ice cream I bought.
You pee an estimated __ times a day?: Err....16? Somewhere around there.
Weirdest dream you've had since pregnant?: I have weird dreams every single time I sleep, so I cannot possibly remember them all. They have all been equally weird. I think the last one I had featured my husband running around the backyard in a pair of my underwear. Which reminds me, I totally forgot to tell him about that one. Feel free to bring it up when you see him next!
Will you breast feed: I am going to try to do it for at least the first 2 months...wish I could do longer as formula is so ridiculously expensive, and breastmilk is so good for the baby anyway...but being a nurse doesn't give you much time to pump. :(
Words of wisdom: YOU CAN EAT SOFT CHEESES IF THEY ARE PASTEURIZED!! (Thank you, THANK YOU for pointing this out to me, Jess!)
Now, I'm off to bathroom run number 14 of my day.
(This totally counts as my mild to moderate exercise, Dear!)
Mother and wife by day, psych RN by night. So many different ways to view life. I try to take everything in and be very slow to judge.