I really, truly hate this month.
I have my own reasons for it always being rough for me, but it seems like everyone I know is having a hard time with January this year. I feel like I'm fighting mental health issues everywhere I turn. I'm constantly worried about at least one person at a time, and lately it's been more like 2 or 3. Luckily it's put me in my pissed-off Marine mode...so I'm up for the challenge right now. Anger tends to help me to channel all of my energy into one specific problem. It wakes up my brain cells, and my ability to be both logical and creative simultaneously is amplified.
God help you if you are getting in the way of the thing I need to fix.
And if you are causing the problem...you're going to have to deal with my wrath. I'm not exaggerating when I say you do not want to even consider being in that position.
Due to my recent increase in energy, I actually almost went to that gym I joined!! The one thing that kept me from going there the other day is the fact that I don't have any decent athletic shoes. My knees have been killing me since we went ice skating the other week, and I can't afford to risk injuring them more by doing something stupid like trying to run without real sneakers or a knee brace. I've just been cleaning the house like a maniac in the meantime. All in all, it's been a productive couple of weeks! I feel like I'm really getting a better hold on everything, and I definitely feel like whatever I don't have under control yet is in the process of being taken care of....I guess things are looking good.
I just can't wait for this month to be over.
I miss you, my friend. So much. Everyday.
Mother and wife by day, psych RN by night. So many different ways to view life. I try to take everything in and be very slow to judge.