It is 1:45am. I haven't felt like writing for months....but now....here we go.
In our job, burnout rates are very high. So many people walk through the doors all bright-eyed and bushy-tailed. They want to HELP people. They want to CURE people. They want to eradicate mental illness one disorganized person at a time.
It is a difficult job.
We see so many things in our jobs. SO MANY THINGS. Like, literally, normal people wouldn't even be able to comprehend the things we see. People who think they're superheros? Check. People who have been to hell and back (literally)? Check. People who are stuck with the emotional regulation of an adolescent for their entire existence? (can you imagine living like that???) Check.
It takes a toll on the patients and the staff.
I have seen so many....SO MANY....wonderful, insightful, smart, HEADSTRONG people start out in this job and then.....they run out of energy. Too many patients called them names. Too many people took their advice only to come back through our doors a week or two later. Too many lost causes. Too many....
It breaks you down.
I am lucky. I went into my job knowing NOT ONLY did I want to be a psych nurse. I wanted to be a psych nurse AT THE HOSPITAL THAT HIRED ME. Seriously lucky. I have seen many a thing. I love my patients. I absolutely LOVE my staff. I love teaching new staff and watching them grow into their role. I love the fact that many of them are petrified of going out on the unit to deal with the unknown and a few months later they are taking charge and are making their presence known.
I hate the turnover rate.
It makes me so, so sad to see so many good people go from this job. For most, this job wasn't for them in the first place. For some.....it was just too taxing. I love to teach people. I love to watch people reach limits they didn't know they could reach. I love seeing someone leave from their shift saying "I really think I helped **** tonight!!" That smile on their faces....it is everything.
So, keep going, keep doing what you love to do. Keep trying to make a difference in someone else's life. If you have a little extra to give, give it to someone who needs a little help.
That is all.
Help people, my friends.
Mother and wife by day, psych RN by night. So many different ways to view life. I try to take everything in and be very slow to judge.