I just wanted to say thank you. The last few weeks have been the hardest I have ever endured in my 35 years, and I would not have been able to make it through every one of these days without my badass tribe. You guys have kept me alive and pushed me to keep seeking growth instead of just curling up and tapping out.
I suddenly feel like I have no home.
After spending over a decade with the same person, everything is changing. With all of the changes comes the inevitable panic and paralysis because untangling 12 years of a life built with someone else is painful and horrible and sad and exhausting and soul-sucking and just plain SHITTY. So, I run. Or....I drive. I drive up and down the highway going to visit people to get coffee, or to go listen to messages of strength and hope to remind myself that my worst days may just be the beginning of my best days.
You guys allow me a minute to breathe again.
You have no idea how much you all have helped. When my brain has seized up and tried to push me in the wrong direction out of fear or stress or all-out misery, you guys have been there. I live for the hugs I get from the people who actually care if I show up day after day. i want to get better. I want to thrive. I want to one day be in the position to help someone else who is going through what I am right now.
So, I will keep pushing. And I will keep leaning on my friends to get me through.
I love you all so very much.
You have no idea how much you mean to me.
Try not to have too Monday a Monday.