I guess it was bound to happen sooner or later...no more work for the time being!
First off, 32 WEEKS - YAY!!!
The doctor has had some concerns for the past 2 months or so, and she finally decided to yank me out of work this past week. My poor husband said, "do you think she'll be able to go back next week?" and she responded with, "Errr....I doubt it, but we'll see?" Poor guy....as if he doesn't have enough stress going on, he also has to worry about me possibly having zero income 8 weeks sooner than expected. :(
Luckily, I am an ostrich of sorts. I am choosing to stick my head in the sand anytime he brings up stuff like us going completely broke, possibly losing my job if I'm out for too long, etc etc....(my brain tends to turn on this "wah wah wah" noise when these come up as it doesn't believe in negativity! Unless that negativity is coming from me, of course.)
I've been trying to make the best use of this time at home to get things done before Waffle comes. I'm starting to get a hospital bag packed for him, I've got the majority of his clothes cleaned and put away, and his room is ready for his arrival! It is great that I am not on strict bedrest, as that would probably drive me bat shit crazy. I'm just on "rest as much as you can and keep your feet up" per my doctor. As long as I keep track of my vital signs and nothing starts to elevate again, I am allowed to maintain this routine. It can be a little frustrating being at home not making money and feeling fine half of the time, but then my body will crash and be like "ENOUGH!" and I'll realize that what my doctor is saying is correct. It wouldn't do me any good to have to curl up into a ball and lay still for a few hours in the middle of my shift. (It also probably wouldn't be fair to the patient when I commandeered their bed for me and the tiny human...)
I have found that I suddenly am filled with creative energy and no outlet for it. I miss playing with modeling clay like I used to before I was a real "grown up". I have the urge to sit at the table and make hundreds of miniature Christmas ornaments featuring my family and Bebita (our fat cat). I also want to go to the fabric store and buy a million types of fleece and making baby blankets galore. Unfortunately, the materials for these projects cost money, which is coming in at a much slower rate at the moment....so I'm trying to dream of things I can do with limited funds and use every day items we have around the house.
If you have any ideas, please share!!
I found myself becoming jealous of my 8 year-old when she was talking about art-on-a-cart a few days ago.
Hopefully I don't go completely bananas while waiting for Waffle to arrive sometime in the next 2 months!
Mother and wife by day, psych RN by night. So many different ways to view life. I try to take everything in and be very slow to judge.