I am positively swimming in my clothes these days.
So after months worth of not feeling well, weeks worth of testing, and a few afternoons driving to separate hospitals to be worked up, they finally came back with some kind of reason I have been feeling so ill.
My stomach has forgotten how to eat properly.
This was discovered by the gastric emptying study they did the other week. Apparently food sitting in your stomach for twice the amount of time can bring on nausea. Go figure.
The doc insisted he did not know what had caused this in me, and also told me that my best option (other than to just suck it up, as apparently this problem NEVER GOES AWAY) is to take some non-FDA approved, causes sudden death in 1/10,000 people, ridiculously named drug that reminds me of booze every time I hear the name (which, by the way, is not the least bit helpful when you're already feeling like you have a hangover all of the time). Or, I can just stick with the antiemetic that may or may not leave me with tardive dyskinesia later on. Anyone what to weigh in with what option they think I should choose? Because honestly, I kind of think they all suck. Which means that I have turned into a petulant child at home, stomping my feet and crying over the fact that I don't want this diagnosis. I want it to be something else. Something fixable.
On one hand, I'm glad they finally figured something out that proves that I am not crazy...all of the tests coming back negative one after the other was making me seriously doubt my own feelings. But now what? I just keep living my life like some randomly sea-sick person who may or may not throw up on you mid-sentence?
I guess you could say I'm a little bit frustrated.
Good thing I have the world's best husband at home who always knows how to make me feel better! (Which I'm sure also benefits him greatly as he is the one who has to share the bed with me.)
Love you, dear!
Hope everyone else is doing well these days...sorry I've sucked at keeping up with everyone lately! I swear I'm going to try to rectify that now that we're turning over a new leaf. :)
Mother and wife by day, psych RN by night. So many different ways to view life. I try to take everything in and be very slow to judge.