You guys. Winter. Ugh.
I am having such a hard time trying to put what I feel into words right now. My brain is so overworked that it is only functioning at approximately 5% capacity at the moment. My mood has been so up and down that I can't keep up and I don't know what to expect from one day to the next. It's exhausting. Some days I am able to wake up and be Super Mom and clean all of the dirty dishes and dust-bust the dog hair off of the kitchen floor (oddly satisfying task, btw). Other days I literally loathe everything about myself and find it hard to even convince myself that I am worthy of showering.
So. That's where we're at.
I mean, it IS January. In fact, it's January 24, which is dangerously close to January 25 which happens to be my least favorite day of the year. This year will be 11 years. That's a long time to miss someone.
I was walking into my therapist's office yesterday, and an older gentleman with a cane was a few steps ahead of me. He started talking out loud to himself, so I started answering him, which turned into a funny little conversation. He made a comment about being lost and I said, "well at least if we're lost we can be lost together!" We chuckled and bonded and it was a cute little 5 minutes before my appointment. It resonated with me, though. I am very, very lost these days. I am also very, very grateful to everyone who has been kind enough to take a few minutes to walk side by side with me down this crazy, winding path that is my life. I would be very lonely and lost without you all!
Please take some time to converse with a random stranger today. Laugh with them. It's fun. One of my top 3 favorite things to do in life! And you never know what difference it might make for that person sitting beside you. You may have just made the worst day of their lives just a tiny bit more manageable.
Be kind. Always. And laugh. A lot.
Have a good Thursday, all.