You guys. It's January. Do you know what that means?
WINTER IS HERE.
Fuck. Also, it's REALLY cold outside. Like REALLY cold. Friggin' northeastern weather.
So, January sucks. It's also the 11th anniversary of the loss of my friend, so that's wonderful. Everything is a struggle these days. Getting out of bed, showering, convincing myself to get off the couch.
Forget about socializing. Jesus. I met with my new therapist for the first time last week and he was like, "so, who do you hang out with?"
Ummmm......my 2 and 5 year old?? Do they count? (No. The answer was a very firm NO.) I don't hang out with anyone. "Well, what do you like to do?"
We watch videos on YouTube of other children playing with toys. Seriously. That's apparently a thing. This generation is going to be so fucked up. GO PLAY WITH THE TOYS YOURSELF, KIDS!!!! I usually put up with approximately 20 minutes of this being on my TV before kick the screaming children out of the room to go use their own damn imaginations like I had to. SERIOUSLY. I feel their brains shriveling a tiny bit smaller every day.
Back to my lack of motivation to do literally anything. At all. If it wasn't for my kids' 10 appointments they all have every week, I seriously wouldn't leave the couch. S.A.D. for the win!! Give me back my sunshine, damnit. I'm dyin' here!!!!
So, no real positive thoughts in this one I guess. I'll end with one. Whoever else is going through this, at least we're all in it together?? Ha. ha. ha.
Stop isolating and find some real people to converse with.
I will attempt to do the same!